Saturday, February 23, 2013

My Last Pregnancy: Month 4

Journaling from Month 4: Weeks 14-18
14 Weeks: 9.2.12 – We Told The Kids!

I don't know why I was a little nervous to tell the kids, maybe it was I didn't know how they would react or maybe I was afraid they wouldn't have much reaction at all, being only four and five.

On Labor Day, September 3, 2012, when I fourteen weeks pregnant, we decided the time was right to tell the kids the big news. Of course, I had new t-shirts made for them and we have it all video taped but I won't bore you with that 6 1/2 minutes of our life. It was a super special time although Carter was in a super silly mood and giggled uncontrollably when he found out that he was going to be a big brother again. Addie was super emotional, so excited and filled with immediate questions like, "Is it going to be a boy or girl?" and "When is the baby coming?" The biggest and best memory Blake and I will have was the most amazing unprovoked hug from Addie, when it sunk in. She just hung on to me and then switched to Blake and then us both. It was such an memorable moment.
(This was taken just a few minutes after we told them.)
 



I am really starting to show now and left with only a handful of outfits that I can wear and hide the belly that is beginning to protrude. I am so excited thought, that my energy has finally returned and I feel 100% back to normal. yea!

15 weeks – 9.8.12 - Over A Third Of The Way

No more hiding. This weekend at the lake, we are going to tell my mom and Joe and Mema. Then I will call my manager on Monday to tell him the big news and it will be a free for all from there. I have told most of my close friends like Megan P, Alli, Cindy, Jennifer and just this past week Terri and of course the kids just last weekend.

Blake bought some "bumpers" yesterday at Pottery Barn, so that purchase served as our very first purchase for the new baby. I still have absolutely zero desire to find out if it's a boy or girl. With Carter's first two weeks of Kindergarten under our belts, I try to imagine our routine having a newborn in the morning. Good thing, if all goes as planned, my first week back to work in June will be the first week of summer for Carter and Addie so I  won't have to do a full 7AM out of the house ready to work with all three until the baby is over five months old. That would be nice.

This is a big week telling my family and work people but I feel like it is the biggest step to really making this new baby feel real! I can't wait.

On September 8, almost 15 weeks along, we were finally with Ya-Ya and Grandpa for the entire weekend at the lake. When dinner was almost over on Saturday night, we gave Carter and Addie the signal that they could share big news. (These pictures are so blurry as I was totally caught in the moment and not caring what I was doing with the camera but I love having every single one!)
This was the kids telling the most important person, Mema!!! I love how she asked me a few weeks later if this was planned?

16 weeks: 9.15.12 - Such a big week!
Wow... it is really starting to feel more and more real. I told my boss this week which was definitely the biggest stressor I had around this whole pregnancy. It felt good to get it off my shoulders. We still have my dad and Nancy, Danielle, Erin (whom I called and she didn't return my call), Julie and Sean (which we really want to tell them in person). Hopefully this week, it will be 100% out.

I'm officially showing and there's no way around it!!! I wore my first wrap dress on Thursday with no effort to hide the belly but still feel like I have just gained weight and don't look pregnant.

Another big event, is Blake got all the baby stuff down from the attic this week. We are thrilled to have kept most of the good stuff we really need but now I feel a little overwhelmed with all the duplicate boy and girl crates of infant clothes just sitting in our game room... one waiting to be opened and used and the other to be sold or donated. Which will it be??? I still have no desire to find out the sex, which it is so nice to not feel conflicted about that.

The kids are talking about the baby more and more and Carter even woke up Saturday morning and walked over and gave my tummy a kiss... that was so unexpected and sweet. I've been told of an old wives tales about the sex of the baby being decided on what children of the opposite sex are more affectionate towards you during your pregnancy. Over the last several months, both kids have been equally super loving and affectionate with me, so it makes it hard to tell by that.
I think we have decided on a room color for the nursery a basic light gray so I am going to call and set up painters to come soon.
16 weeks with Miss Addie at the pool!
17 weeks: 9.22.12 - Letting It All Hang Out!
This past week was the first time I wasn't trying to hide my belly. I wore fitted wrap dresses but I am at that point in pregnancy where I really don't look pregnant but could easily be confused with being really bloated. I started telling a few of my offices and told my sisters - Erin and Julie and my two good girl friends, Regan and Alison, this week. Erin already knew because she had been snooping while she babysat the kids for a couple of days in July and saw the Father's Day card I had given Blake sitting on my dresser where I had mentioned being excited about deciding to have a 3rd child together.

I physically feel great and am back to working out 2-3 times a week. My ideal goal is four times but I am elated with three. This was a super tough week emotionally as we found out this Thursday morning that my beloved "Mema" has been diagnosed with terminal esophageal and stomach cancer and has been given just six months to live. I can't help but pray she stays around to meet her newest grandchild but I don't want her in any pain. This weekend has been filled with multiple meetings with hospice and setting up around the clock care for her. I just pray for her spirit and mood and what she is going through, now that she has been told she has cancer. We are doing everything in our power to keep her in her own apartment and as comfortable as possible.
18 weeks: 10.1.12 - Did I Stay Strong During The Sonogram?!?!
We just got home from your BIG screen debut, the 18 week sonogram and I have to say I did have an urge to find out what you were... a boy or girl. I found myself thinking silly and suddenly remembering of the two sonogram rooms they have, we were in one when we found out we were having a BOY and in the other one, across the hall, when we were told it was a GIRL! 
Guess which one we went into this time?!?!? It was the same room as.... Carter... I do wonder if that means anything? It was nice that Jan, the sonogram tech, looked to see the sex without us even noticing so I didn't even have to concentrate on being good and not looking at the screen at that point. Your heart rate was 142 and besides being ALL over the place, you looked incredibly healthy! We saw all ten fingers and ten toes, four chambers of your heart, your healthy lip to chin, your blood flow, your kidney's and brain, just to name a few.
Waiting together to see the doctor just after your first photo shoot at 18 weeks.

We painted your nursery this past week and it looks perfect. The simplicity of hiring it out and us only having to move the furniture and take things off the walls was very indicative of this pregnancy.... relaxed, happy and easy. Those have been my goals for you, me and the family and thus far, it has worked beautifully! Your dad keeps commenting on how we have to keep this relaxed, at-ease Megan around, once you come!

Do I feel you? That is the question I keep asking myself. When I am quiet and still, reading in the early mornings, sitting right now here at the computer in silence journaling, I feel these little tiny pieces of popcorn popping occasionally. No gas... so I'm pretty sure it's you saying, "hello." I just love it.

Soon, we will show the kids your first pictures from the sonogram. I know they will love it too!
18 weeks

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